Yet another reason!

Yes! There is yet another reason why I write these blogs. Let me explain that fact as well.  At the time of her sad demise, Aai looked extremely calm and quiet as if she was just fast asleep. Neither her face nor her body had that uglines of rigor mortis. Except for the glacial touch of her body, she looked as if she could just get up any minute. 

Why, even the scratch she had when she tried to pull out the nasal tube she was fed with, and was also fed up with, was slightly  visible. She was that normal in death. In life, however, since January when her oral feed was pushed down her trachea and she had a huge coughing fit with oxygen jumping up and down acrobatically, she looked very ill. A self-respecting woman like her would not like that Ryle's tube, moreover.  It riled her for sure.

She looked very ill, truly fragile. The general feel when she passed away, hence, was "She is now relieved of her pain, of all her troubles." In fact, many openly said so.

That was not the way she lived though. She loved life. She enjoyed many aspects of it. Why, she rarely fell ill as such though minor and some age-related issues would be there. Basically, she was feisty, she was hyper-sensitive, she was hyper-romantic. I think, I am writing on the blog to celebrate that lively Aai ever full of life. She lived life with contentment. 

I want that reality of hers to be celebrated. Not the last few days when every physical action must have been a pain. Joy, happines, mirth would be her middle name. These blogs are up to celebrate that genuineness of her.

pratima@ choose joy in evrything you do